Maybe I'm finally free of this creative deadzone. I've regained the confidence to start uploading again now that I've been a part of a few projects these last couple of years, including my own comic.

So, as I write this I am in a creative deadzone. Whenever I try to draw or write, I just can't seem to either find the drive or finish it. It's driving me insane. I haven't even posted my first drawing of the year and it's fucking March. Truth be told this stalemate started back in August of 2020, but it was mostly with wattpad, I didnt think it would spread to my art. Like I don't even know what to do. When I said I was out of ideas, I wasnt kidding.

Don't you just love it when that happens?

Seriously I don’t know why I keep having these. I look at my art in disgust compared to other, far superior artists. And think to myself that I’ll never get to that level. There’s days I just want to throw my hands up and quit.

My friends tell me I have improved but in my mind, not only do I doubt it but I feel as if they’re saying that to spare my feelings. I’ve never been so uncertain about something in my entire life

TeacupAudios youtube channel has been terminated. Flase accusations of sexual content. I swear this has ruined my night

One of my favourite youtubers, MiniLadd/Craig Thompson has fallen so far. And has been accused of serious crimes that I will not mention here. Research for yourself.

What stings for me is that he is seemingly ignoring it, not batting an eye. I can't watch him anymore. It feels just so wrong.

And I feel uncomfortable when I try to watch his stuff. It honestly really hurts when someone you look up to falls so damn far.

As I write this it is 3:58AM CST, I should really go to bed as my last submission took about six hours.Started at around 9 ish.